Monday, January 26, 2009

Very Sad Day

This will be short and sweet as I have to keep busy, which isn't a problem as I have several orders to fill, and to keep my mind active. Danny had yet another heart attack yesterday. We were at the hospital last night and I'm crushed - simply crushed.

For those of you who do not know who Danny is, he is our best friend/brother in heart and soul. We've been friends for years and now he is loosing his battle with lung cancer. I have several posts about him on my blog, but if you click on the pic it will take you to the one about our Sea World trip.

I'm so horribly sad, eyes swollen from crying so much that I can barely see straight. Danny is only 48. In his short, but well lived life, he has had about 4 + heart attacks, bi-pass surgeries and unexpectedly diagnosed last April with stage 4 lung cancer after a chest x-ray because he wasn't feeling well. That was a blow. Mark & I went to appointments with Danny & Margie and when the doc said stage 4, we all pretty much lost color, to say the least. I was Danny's chemo buddy. I took him to chemo, we would people watch, eat snacks (he loves chocolate!) watch DVD movies, talk, laugh and whatever else to pass the 8 hours of his chemo therapy. Chemo and all other treatment have now stopped. All we have is time.

There are no treatments or surgeries that can be done due to his failing health. A surgery would actually kill him. Danny is now on DNR, per his request. They are setting up hospice today so he can be at home and comfortable. The doc, obviously, could not give a time frame - said it could be days, weeks, etc. Danny is one tough cookie and has fought this battle so well that he's amazed the docs - and us. I know he will continue to fight. Funny, he's worried about me! Even told Mark last night to please take care of me and make sure I'm okay. Danny. I just love him.

Well, guess this wasn't so "short and sweet" after all. I do need to get to work though. I have to work, just can't think anymore.

Live every moment as if it counts - because it does.

Love,
Rocki

13 comments:

Mana Moon Studios said...

Oh Rocki I'm so sorry. Danny and all of you will be in our thoughts and in our heart.♥

Carol said...

A regretfull post to read. I am truly sorry Rocki. Its so hard to lose a good friend, we have so few really GOOD friends. But you know that his spirit will always be with you, just as he will know that yours remains with him to give him strength at the end of his journey on this earth.

You are a better person for having him as a friend.

Grizzly Mountain Arts said...

I am so sorry to hear that your friend has reached this point. My sister-in-law had lung cancer, so I can appreciate your pain. I'm sure he has found so much comfort in the special bond he has with you.

I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.

Angie Kelly Designs said...

Oh Rocki ~ honey I am so sorry, and know all too well, what you're going thru, after almost the exact thing happened with my hubby's step mom right before Christmas. You are in my thoughts and prayers dear friend ♥
((((HUGS)))))

Anonymous said...

Rocki I am so sorry to hear about your brother/friend. I trying not to cry. I have had several people in my life pass on from cancer and I know how grewling the cemo can be. Please know you and Danny are in my thoughts and prayers right now.♥ Jenco13 from twitter team

dochoamom said...

Oh Rocki, That is very sad. I remember your Sea World trip out here. You were very happy. Its good that you have been there for them. And had this time to share. Prayers and love coming your way...

Love, Deb

A Blond And A Torch said...

I am so sorry to read this, Rocki. Your family and Danny's will be in my prayers.

Rocki said...

Thank you all for your very kind comments. I didn't mean to make anybody sad, I guess I just needed to let it out some more is all. Funny how the blog world opens doors for you.

Love,
Rocki

MySweetThree said...

I am so so sorry to read about this..I saw your comment on the Etsy Twitter Team google pages, I thought I would come by and check out your blog..
I have never read your blog before, I will go now and read about Sea World..
But from what I have read from this post, it sounds like this man has been such a blessing to your life and he has been such a large part of it.
My thoughts are with you.
Take Care,
Kristin

Sweets 'N Greets said...

Sis- we've talked about Danny many times before, even the night he went inot the hospital. You know my "heary" ;-) is with him, Tweety, you and Mark. With his kemo at an end, he can live his life without the side effects and that makes me happy.

Tracey N. said...

So sorry to hear about your good friend/brother. I lost my Father last year to stage 4 Lung Cancer. I know your pain and what you are going through all too well. My Fathers case sound very similar to your friends case. Dad had several heartattacks and strokes. He was diagnosed in August of 2007 and we were blessed to have him until January 9th of 2008. Enjoy all your time and keep praying for a miracle. God Bless you all. Tracey

CarDon said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Rocki. I am so sad to hear of a loss of someone so young.

Carla

Heart of a Cowgirl said...

Rocki - sending thoughts and prayers your way and to your family. So sorry to hear of this.